sigh

this time last year i was in Prague. 2008 exact same time i am organizing the memorial for my moms death. i can't believe how much can change in a year, hell everything can change in a second. my brother, sister and i spent yesterday with our family. first we went to the cemetery and then it was off to my moms place for tea and conversation. after our extended family left we headed out to the street fair up the block from my moms house. i remembered my mom didn't pick up the phone when i had called to tell her i arrived safely in europe. later i found out that she was with her sister at the annual street fair, the same one my siblings and i were attending a year later.

its still such a freak thought that on that day last year she was just hanging out with her sister not knowing that it was her last day on earth!!!! how crazy is that? why is it so hard for us to not get bogged down by the everyday nonsense? i don't know, i'm also guilty of forgetting that we are not immortal and that any second can be our last one. so everyday i'm going to remind myself that no matter what happens it is never as serious or final as death.